Summer 2012

Summer 2012 has been short, LONG, hard, EASY, silly, boring, FUN, silent, LOUD, empty, FULL, working, SLEEPING, friends, FAMILY, busy, not busy, fun, HARD, lots of food, DEPRESSING, road trips, patience, learning, BONDING, hurting, thinking, changing, MISSING, growing closer to Tim while being separated by thousands of miles.

 

I have not blogged in a while and I kind of miss it. I know a lot of people do not read my blog, but writing it is like taking a look back at how far Tim and I have come and I love that. June was busy and kind of easy. I spent it working and I had just got back from seeing Tim so I was missing him less. July was a blessing as well because I was able to go and see him again. Then I started the countdown. Tim was supposed to be coming home on Aug 22, it was set in stone, his plane ticket was bought we would be living together in a few short weeks. Well one lesson learned this summer is that nothing is set in stone and that things do not always work the way I believe they should (I kind of already knew that, but I suppose it’s good to have it reinforced sometimes. J) Tim did not come home.

 Long story short at the beginning of the summer military officials asked Tim (and the other Airmen) a health survey about their wives and Tim answered that I had asthma. Now that is a true statement, sort of. I have asthma attacks when I get bronchitis, or when I get other respiratory illnesses. So maybe two times a year (usually once) I will get sick and then I have to be careful because my asthma flairs up. But I never really saw myself as having an illness. I do not take medication and only very rarely use my inhaler. I believe this year it has been used twice and that was due to having bronchitis. However because of that I needed to have my doc medically clear me to travel with Tim…..something they were supposed to tell him in June and due to a mix up in paperwork they did not tell him until two days after he was supposed to come home.  The 11 page document that had to be filled out by my doctor took a week for me to get filled out and will now take about 2 weeks to be processed. Though Tim was told that they are trying to expedite the process so that we can move to our next base…together.

 August has been the most difficult month for me. I quit work on August 17, in order to pack (as I thought I was moving). So my time is not really filled and as people know nothing breeds sorrow faster than sitting around the house feeling sorrow for one ’s self. Luckily I am blessed with an abundance of love surrounding me. Sister-in-laws who loan me their children, time and house. Aunts and cousins who share with me their food, support, ears and babies to cuddle. Nieces and newphews who play and act silly and dogs who cuddle and give kisses. They have kept me afloat during this difficult time.

 I saw Tim over the Labor Day weekend and it was great. We watched t.v., ate really crappy food, took a road trip (ended up in Oklahoma), saw some cows , horse and more cows, played games and got some rest. It was bliss. I am grateful for that opportunity and everybody who helped by watching my dogs, letting me park my car at their house or by thinking and praying for us.

If you are still reading this you deserve a gold medal. J